i feel that im always different from my friends. from school time schedule to my personality.

the only one got the worse scores for o lvl, and i feel pretty ashamed.
the only one studyin in nafa, while the rest are in poly.
the only one who studies visual arts, and dying becuase of some stupid depression.
the only long hair guy.
the only one who doesnt have much humour.
the only one who sometimes makes strange noises.
the only one who stammers, and cant communicate well with others.
the only one who feels pretty much left out and gets depress about it much often.
the only one who doesnt give much confidence for himself, because no one gives him in the first place.
the only one who feels no one first engages conversation with him, unless they need his help.
the only one whose quite unpopular with girls. prob.


i have no life, im always tied down with school work. and they seldom ask me out because of my wierd timetable scedule. im always busy when they're free. and free when they're busy. alone, i am again, spending my free time, undisturbed. .
i have not bought any shirts from shopping malls since last december. i wonder when will i ever buy a couple of shirts..

and they think its me who IS the root of all problem.
its me, its me. and so shall it be. because majority wins. and thats democracy.

i dun give shit about it anymore. they are already a fact and will always be.
why get depress about it agn and agn? hmm.. probably they think im just not treating them nicely enuf..

the world still spins; let them be what they've always been, and i'll be what i am, in my own little world, where they think they've just trampled on a little ant.

ive got God; i'll jus go whereva he leads me, and thats good enuf.
he didnt mould me to be a leader, like them, and i never was; for he had other plans...

its gonna be bloody 5am soon and i think i shld sleep..






memories of the past lingers on...





emotionally depressed