a friend once told me this:

"u sit at the com whole day hoping that someone will initiate a convo, When nobody does u at first accept it as normal, subsequently, u start thinking during that lonely moments, that nobody really likes you. Hence, nobody toks to you. You gauge comparisions from more popular frens. You wallow in some sort of self-pity, yet you are thinking at the back of yur mind that you know it is self-pity.

self-pity itself is bad and it puts you in a rut and you agree, yet some attempts to disengage that leaves you tired and it dosen't work, so you go back into self-pity, you subsequently get lazy to even think and drown yourself in your self-pity in that lonely parts of your life. You attempt to inject life of some sorts into it with so called laughter. Yet at the back of your mind you always know that self-pity is wrong. And it all basically repeats and it makes you think that nobody likes you and that life is a bore and That MAYBE.. Just MAYBE if you lose all contact with friends and the outside world, you will get pity and with it attention.. If NOT then it proves that you are right and that nobody likes you and you live your life in a decadent state until something interesting crops up.

so you are thus confused and tired to even comprehend the conflicting emotions and it leaves you dejected and angry. This anger translate to self-pity and, as I see it self-pity is like quicksand. The more you tread in it, the deeper you go."



damn right.
(well, i had to spend sometime digestin what he told me.. haha.)